Knit One.... Purl Two

Howdy y'all...as everyone knows I've been experiencing a Major case of the Blues due to the uncertainty at work....(they will probably be informing us who will be laid off and who get the honor of remaining) it is so real now.....I think the day will be next Tuesday or Wednesday.....after the notification occurs everything will change instantly ..... some of my coworkers I will probably never see again. I've been getting every one's personal emails, cell # and address......the day it hits it will be too late. I've taken some of my things home just in case..... I feel like I may putting Bad Mojo out in the universe....but I'm sure the decisions have already been made and gone through Legal review. I would appreciate any and all Prayers.... the anxiety is really getting too me, two years ago I was involved in major Policy Violation Investigation as an investigator....it really had an impact on me ..... so many peoples jobs on the line and all it went on for over 3 months.....after a month my heart was pounding so hard I could count the beats without touching my body......I could sleep ....I just couldn't shut it down....that is when all my other strange symptoms emerged.....about 5 specialists and no real answers other than having too much Iron in my blood and thank God it was caught before it destroyed my organs..... I'm being monitored on an ongoing basis.... Anyway almost 2 months into this Layoff situation my heart is pounding again and I can't sleep.....i do have med's for my stress/pounding heart but it puts on weight and I've had issues with Vertigo.....so I'm really not relying on it to solve my problem.....So recently I read a book about a gal who was going through a shocking divorce and the only thing that got her out of her major case of the Blues was learning how to Knit........she called it the New Yoga.....an activity that is creative and you can just get lost in it. So guess what I did tonight....I went to my 1st Knitting class.....so much fun....I need to be practicing right now ....next week we can elect to do a project, a shawl or a cool scarf.....I want to do the scarf.... any way I bit the bullet and spent the $ not knowing if I would have a job or not but I think it is just what I need with my Stress level being so High. I hope I haven't bored you....oh by the way I also did reactivate my LA Fitness membership....very little $ and it will help me shape up after I have been sitting around for almost 2 months.

Great recipe - Taco Soup

I found this recipe on someone wonderful on line journal but it has been about a week and I can't remember whose I got it from....so if it is yours please claim in a comment. I just made it and it is really yummy!

Taco Soup
1/2 pound ground beef (Lean beef)
1/4 cup chopped onion
1/2 cup chopped green pepper
one 8 ounce can tomato sauce
1-1/2 cup water
one 16 ounce can stewed tomatoes (I used a can of Del Monte Stewed Tomatoes -Mexican style
one 16 ounce can kidney beans ( I used a can of Ranch Style - Pinto beans with Jalapenos)
1/2 envelope taco seasoning
Corn chips
Grated cheese
Sour cream
aAvacado

Brown ground beef & onion and drain fat when finished. Add water, green pepper, tomatoes, undrained beans, tomato sauce & taco seasoning mix Simmer all ingredients for about 1 hour. Serve soup in bowls topped with grated cheese & crumbled corn chips. An additional topping that's good is a dollop of Sour cream and Avacado. Enjoy!

The Green Mile

I'm back at work with the rest of the walking dead.......news on the street is that the people being impacted by the layoff will be informed on January 28th....the stress is getting to everyone.....tonight I got home around 7:30 and I was so tired I dropped the groceries on the counter, put a few things in the fridge and I couldn't get to the bed fast enough......Boy I had a flash back to 2 years ago when exhaustion would hit out of no where and I would almost have to lay down where every I was...I'm sure this extreme stress is bringing it back on plus the fact that I took myself off Mirapex without talking to the Dr. (I have a Dr appt in about 2 weeks....maybe their is something that will help without all the horrible side effects...weight gain etc.)
Guy update (the guy from the great News Years Eve date) in his last email he asked me a question so I answered his question on what I did on Sat night and absolutely no response back....I can see that he is on the dating web site many times a day without sending me even an email ..... he obviously is pursuing his next catch..... online dating never ceases to amaze me......it is hard to compete with the ever non ending line of women standing in line for the same men... oh well I keep reminding myself that it just takes "1" .
night di

Happy New Year

Hi All,

Well back to the real world.....after 16 days off from work I'm heading back today...wouldn't you know that my sweet dog Teddy....(14 yrs old) has thrown up this morning and has the runs.....I can tell you I will make several trips home during the day to check on her!

As for my News Eve date it was FABULOUS......we supposed to meet at 7:00 but I had to change to 8:00 due to the apartment maintenance guys showing up to install a new dishwasher (I have been hand washing dishes for 21 days I wasn't about to turn them away....anyway I was an hour and a half behind schedule and hadn't even been to the stables to do my daily horsey chores....I called my date and it wasn't a problem at all ..... (good test to see how flexible he is and if he is a control freak so far so good.....
Well we meet in the parking lot around the downtown Main street area where there are a lot of restaurants and he was waiting in his truck.....when I first saw him I was thrilled that he was cuter in person Thank you Thank you Thank you!.....and I couldn't believe it but he brought me a bouquet of flowers (he had them in his truck and went back to get them....I'm sure he wanted to see me before he gave them to me, just in case I was uglier than my picture : )....that about knock me over! Our date was supposed to be a drink and dash date but we ended up having dinner and dancing the night away...we held hand and a smooch at midnight....we stayed until they closed the place down. He knew about every person in the place, I felt a little awkward but settled myself down and just went with the flow. He was so much fun and wanted to go to breakfast but I called it a night....I felt like I should end it on a good note and hopefully we would have a 2nd date. Well I got a terrific knock you off your feet kiss goodbye.....he asked me to call him to let him know I made it home ok... which I did. Over the weekend he went to his deer lease......I received 2 emails from him yesterday but no phone call.....I will have to wait and see if there will be a follow up date....I would be shocked if there wasn't...but I've been surprised in the past......he may just be playing the field...he is new to online dating and sometimes guys get the big head with how many woman are out their and ready to go out on a date.....(he dated someone over the summer and they broke it off with him and ended up dating a friend of his). Keep your fingers crossed that he actually calls me this week....if he doesn't I will have my answer!

Diane

Accidental New Years date

Happy New Year to everyone....I'm sitting here trying to think of some outstanding accomplishments for 2008 and what I can boils down to is I spent the year pushing my comfort zones ........Belly Dance performances and I pushed myself to go on more dates...I must say non of the dates moved past the 1st date.....in most cases my decision not to pursue it due to lack of chemistry......(although I had a date about 2 weeks ago with a man that I would consider going on another date with). Now onto my accidental New Years date..........I recently began to chat with a guy (online dating site) through emails and it quickly ended up in a phone call last night (I had to call quickly before I chicken out) anyway when we were hanging up he asked if I would be interested in getting together for a drink.....and asked if I was free on Wed. (he thought Thursday was New Years Eve) when I told him that it was NYE he asked if I wanted to go with him to his friends home who is throwing a party.....I declined.....I've never met him and it may turn out to be One drink and got to Run date. After so many disappointing 1st dates I think the best 1st date would be to pass each other on a street corner and if you like what you see you could plan a real date. I guess I'm tainted from too many disappointing dates. I will have to let you know how it goes tomorrow night....wish me luck.
Diane

8 more vacation days

I can't believe how much TV I can watch in one day....I still haven't had much motivation (too much emotion spent worrying about possible lay offs at work). I have been watching marathons of NCIS, Big Break X Michigan and today I watched Highway 18 (who would have guessed I would enjoy watching Golf reality competitions shows when I never played a round of golf). Every day I have gotten some things accomplished around my apartment hopefully over the next 8 days I will get myself out of the Blues that I'm been experiencing and get motivated to do more!
I have spent a great deal of time finding new blogs to read.....there are so many interesting journals it is endless.....a few of the weight loss journals had reviews of Marylou Retton's scale designed to help you lose weight in 10 lb increments.....well I bought one for a chrismas present to myself.......well I wish I hadn't.....with my new approach to dieting based on 2 books"Intuitive Eating" "The Rules of Normal Eating". Basically it boils down to getting back in touch with your body and waiting to eat until you are trully hunger and Stopping when you begin to fill full.....no foods are off limits (with time this helps rid your self of binges that occur when you deny yourselves from "forbidden foods". What is surprising is just how fast you really get full ...... and it takes a lot of self control to stop eating at the point of being ful when the food you are eating tastes so good. Anyway getting back to my not liking the Marylou Retton scale is that Intutive Eating is more effective if you don't weigh yourself...you know how water weight and other bodily funtions effect your weight and if the scale says the wrong number it ruins your day and your efforts to be a normal eater.....having formally been an anorexic it would be nice to be a normal eater (not dieting all the time or constantly feeling bad about food) and just get to my natural body weight. Sorry not a very upbeat entry.

Well that is all for now....Diane

I love this Cathy Cartoon.=!