Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Knit One.... Purl Two

Howdy y'all...as everyone knows I've been experiencing a Major case of the Blues due to the uncertainty at work....(they will probably be informing us who will be laid off and who get the honor of remaining) it is so real now.....I think the day will be next Tuesday or Wednesday.....after the notification occurs everything will change instantly ..... some of my coworkers I will probably never see again. I've been getting every one's personal emails, cell # and address......the day it hits it will be too late. I've taken some of my things home just in case..... I feel like I may putting Bad Mojo out in the universe....but I'm sure the decisions have already been made and gone through Legal review. I would appreciate any and all Prayers.... the anxiety is really getting too me, two years ago I was involved in major Policy Violation Investigation as an investigator....it really had an impact on me ..... so many peoples jobs on the line and all it went on for over 3 months.....after a month my heart was pounding so hard I could count the beats without touching my body......I could sleep ....I just couldn't shut it down....that is when all my other strange symptoms emerged.....about 5 specialists and no real answers other than having too much Iron in my blood and thank God it was caught before it destroyed my organs..... I'm being monitored on an ongoing basis.... Anyway almost 2 months into this Layoff situation my heart is pounding again and I can't sleep.....i do have med's for my stress/pounding heart but it puts on weight and I've had issues with Vertigo.....so I'm really not relying on it to solve my problem.....So recently I read a book about a gal who was going through a shocking divorce and the only thing that got her out of her major case of the Blues was learning how to Knit........she called it the New Yoga.....an activity that is creative and you can just get lost in it. So guess what I did tonight....I went to my 1st Knitting class.....so much fun....I need to be practicing right now ....next week we can elect to do a project, a shawl or a cool scarf.....I want to do the scarf.... any way I bit the bullet and spent the $ not knowing if I would have a job or not but I think it is just what I need with my Stress level being so High. I hope I haven't bored you....oh by the way I also did reactivate my LA Fitness membership....very little $ and it will help me shape up after I have been sitting around for almost 2 months.

5 comments:

Celeste said...

They do know in advance who will be let go. We are facing some uncertainity here also on the job front. I hope that it is good news for y'all.

Vaquerogirl said...

Sometimes good things come wrapped in newspaper. I have been unemployed now since August. It's been hard, but it has also been a blessing! You're smart- you'll be fine! Take your vitamin B , get some rest and breathe! Like I always say- Take the leap Sweetie- build your wings on the way down!

Winivere said...

Good for you! Whatever it takes to calm down the STRESS, Girlfriend! Also try cinnamon stick + anise stars in a pot of water. Boil to make a relaxing tea.
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CINDY said...

i will keep you in prayers for sure. i love to knit. i've made plenty of slippers, hats, scarfs and baby booties, even a coupl baby sweater sets and blankets. it is very relaxing. you will love it.

So Not Mom-a-licious said...

I left you an Honest SCrap award on my blog this AM. Let me know if you do it!