Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Accidental New Years date

Happy New Year to everyone....I'm sitting here trying to think of some outstanding accomplishments for 2008 and what I can boils down to is I spent the year pushing my comfort zones ........Belly Dance performances and I pushed myself to go on more dates...I must say non of the dates moved past the 1st date.....in most cases my decision not to pursue it due to lack of chemistry......(although I had a date about 2 weeks ago with a man that I would consider going on another date with). Now onto my accidental New Years date..........I recently began to chat with a guy (online dating site) through emails and it quickly ended up in a phone call last night (I had to call quickly before I chicken out) anyway when we were hanging up he asked if I would be interested in getting together for a drink.....and asked if I was free on Wed. (he thought Thursday was New Years Eve) when I told him that it was NYE he asked if I wanted to go with him to his friends home who is throwing a party.....I declined.....I've never met him and it may turn out to be One drink and got to Run date. After so many disappointing 1st dates I think the best 1st date would be to pass each other on a street corner and if you like what you see you could plan a real date. I guess I'm tainted from too many disappointing dates. I will have to let you know how it goes tomorrow night....wish me luck.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

8 more vacation days

I can't believe how much TV I can watch in one day....I still haven't had much motivation (too much emotion spent worrying about possible lay offs at work). I have been watching marathons of NCIS, Big Break X Michigan and today I watched Highway 18 (who would have guessed I would enjoy watching Golf reality competitions shows when I never played a round of golf). Every day I have gotten some things accomplished around my apartment hopefully over the next 8 days I will get myself out of the Blues that I'm been experiencing and get motivated to do more!
I have spent a great deal of time finding new blogs to read.....there are so many interesting journals it is endless.....a few of the weight loss journals had reviews of Marylou Retton's scale designed to help you lose weight in 10 lb increments.....well I bought one for a chrismas present to myself.......well I wish I hadn't.....with my new approach to dieting based on 2 books"Intuitive Eating" "The Rules of Normal Eating". Basically it boils down to getting back in touch with your body and waiting to eat until you are trully hunger and Stopping when you begin to fill full.....no foods are off limits (with time this helps rid your self of binges that occur when you deny yourselves from "forbidden foods". What is surprising is just how fast you really get full ...... and it takes a lot of self control to stop eating at the point of being ful when the food you are eating tastes so good. Anyway getting back to my not liking the Marylou Retton scale is that Intutive Eating is more effective if you don't weigh yourself...you know how water weight and other bodily funtions effect your weight and if the scale says the wrong number it ruins your day and your efforts to be a normal eater.....having formally been an anorexic it would be nice to be a normal eater (not dieting all the time or constantly feeling bad about food) and just get to my natural body weight. Sorry not a very upbeat entry.

Well that is all for now....Diane

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Call me a slug

I can't get going today......I had to go to the barn this am because 2 guys there had offered to help me move my months worth of hay that was delivered yesterday and the guys that delivered it stacked the 20 bales so high about 2 times my height, it looked like Mount Everest...it was so ridiculous! Thankfully they felt sorry for me ..... the thing was I needed to be there 1st thing in the morning....well I only got about 2-3 hours of sleep.....moving and rearranging my portion of the feed room required about 2 hours....I can feel it in my lower back. a 2 hour nap hasn't helped much ....hopefully I will get a second wind later this evening....I'm a night owl. I still haven't decided if I'm going to put up my small christmas tree....whew time is running out. Diane

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Is it Friday?

Well the count down is on......I get off at noon tomorrow and I will be on vacation for over 2 weeks...(this year this is really important.....less time to screw up at work while they are making make or break decision on who gets to remain....please oh please pick me : )

I thinking about actually putting up my Christmas tree ( I love and collect ornaments and love the little white lights all lite up with all the lights in the house turned off)...I will keep you informed.

Off to work...Diane

Saturday, December 13, 2008

I Made it through another week


Another week down.....2 weeks since the news of 40% lay off of my dept.
*Depression has hit
*I haven't gone to a single belly dancing class or Nia class in 2 weeks
*On the weekends sleeping about 12 hours (surprised my dog Teddy is agreeable to that much sleep)
*Going to bed early during the week
*I guess I'm getting down to the basics so My focus is on doing the best job I can ...... I certainly don't want a major screw up at work .....when they are deciding who gets to remain
*Ordered books on choosing the right career (just in case)
*Holding off on writing a resume and ordering how to write a good resume and how to interview (don't want to put bad mojo out in the universe)
*Don't think I'm putting up a Christmas tree up this year (I love christmas trees and collect ornaments)
*A guy from Match that we had been exchanging emails and a few calls.....was suppose to call and let me know when a good time to meet over coffee has disappeared.....the old something better came along on Match.....no response is a response.
*There is a little bit of hope another man on Match is emailing....he is a little older than I would normally go for but he seems like a grounded person and didn't run when I let him know about the possible lay offs....I think his company is going through the same thing
*Visit to the Oncologist yesterday let me know that my Iron level in my blood is remains high but not at the point that we would need to take action...go back in a year....if I have medical insurance
*Love watching sappy Christmas movies ..... must have a happy ending
*If I'm blessed with keeping my job I have gotten a wake up call...I will be spending less and saving more and down sizing my belongings in case I have to move

Sunday, December 7, 2008


Well, I haven't felt much like journaling, Monday an announcement was made at work that my 40% of the dept.I work for was going to 40% of the work force laid off (I don't know how they are going to restructure...... our entire group could be hit or a move to another state could be required, I won't know who is impacted until mid January....at the end of the teleconference that last thing said was "Have a Merry Christmas, go shopping"... I couldn't believe how insensitive that statement was......it would have been more appropriate to say Christmas is cancelled! So I have been very depressed, scared to say the least.....fears of being homeless are all I can think about....it's not like job opportunities are bountiful! Prayers are appreciated!