The results are in .....at least partially

Well I have been trying to buck up and sit down and write about last week....last week (Wednesday)it was D day.....thank goodness I wasn't there because my Dad had surgery and I was at the hospital with him. My cell was ringing off the wall with the causalities and all I can say is that it was massive. About 60% of my dept. were laid off...all my friends are impacted.....2 coworkers worked one additional day and the others are working for about 3 weeks to transition, only 2 of those impacted are even interacting with me.....I'm sure they are thinking that it should be them and not me that gets to remain. I'm happy that I'm still there but I also now know that the longer term plans are to move everything up to NY and moving me don't seen to be part of the plan (I will know for certain once the new manager is in place....there may be a slight chance that I could work virtually) so right now I have just been given a longer notice period....maybe up around 2 years...(I'm hoping for at least 2 years and 3 months so I can bridge to retirement and not lose it.....anyway I'm still depress with so many uncertainties. Oh by the way I know why I probably have a short shelf life....the people that have been moved into my friends jobs are at a higher grade level so I'm probably OK enough to help them get up and running but I probably don't cut the mustard long term.....it is so frightening.....it really shakes your confidence up .....I wasn't focused this week at work and felt like I was getting sick (run down and chills yesterday) so I decided to take a vacation day and sleep in....nip it in the bud so to speak.....needless to say I haven't been dieting or exercising at all and I'm afraid to step on the scales until I've returned to exercising....I'm trying not to beat myself up ..... I can only take just so much stress and disappointment. The one good thing is that I have been knitting ..... pulling out a lot of stitches but I'm sticking with it....I have one more class in the beginners series...I will probably wait to move on the the next level ....I need to concentrate on burning what I've been taught into my brain. I have come in contact with a local group a Knitting group (Stitch and Bitch group) I didn't go last night but I will go to the next get together. I would like to have some knitting friends....I've all but decided to bellydance anymore......I've reading a book about people who like to learn many new things and move on and I think I'm like that...we are called "Scanners" people who go full force into something.....learn it...and then move onto the next adventure......the one thing in my life that I have always kept as an interest is quilting......well enough for one entry....I hope all is well in your life : ) diane