Monday, December 28, 2009
Actually I can't remember what the previous blog post was titled : )Come to think about it if I was actually doing some digging I would at least be earning some Activity Points.....I guess I did some actually digging ..... I just got back from the stables ... doing my daily horsey chores which includes mucking her stall. Due to tummy issues Gracie can only eat hay... and lots of it....so there is always plenty to muck. I did get a call from one of my bellydancing friends and just talking to her lifted my spirits some....Progress. All in all I haven't eating my way out of the blues.... just not doing much of anything productive... ie. straightening up my apt. which really needs it and excercising!

Monday, December 28, 2009
Wow...... I've been in the dumps for the last week.....why do I let a guy get me off track.... I was excited that a guy from my Singles Bible study at church was calling/emailing (the 2 weeks leading up to the week of christmas) and had told me that he was interested in getting to know me. He invited me to join him and his daughter who had come home from college (he had share that she was very much a daddy's girl) to a christmas service ...... I was really excited ...well to net it out I haven't gotten an email or call since that evening.... I keep racking my brain and all I can come up with is that his daughter isn't OK with another gal in his life.....I hate to tell you what a disappointment it was to me.... I'm sure it's not just this recent happening but all the disappoinments that I've had to muddle through over the last 4 years.....Why have I let it get me off track and lower my self worth..... I have been a slug the last week...... basically I have only done the must do's.... family get togethers... I did get myself to my WW meeting yesterday..... I know I need to be pulling out my exercise dvd's (Leslie Sasone or one off my many bellydancing dvd's)..... my belly dancing studio is closed down the last 2 weeks of December so I'm not getting that exercise and not being around my friends there...... all I want to do is sleep..... I know I need to pull myself out of this low and not let another person throw me off my path....I can mentally grasp what I need to do but I just haven't gotten to the point where I can put it into action. Hopefully my next posting will be more upbeat!

Why is my body revolting?

I've been on Weight Watchers for 4 months... and I swear for the last month my body has been revolting against all my efforts....I have stuck to the plan the only thing that has changed is that I don't wait to exercise everyday or walk on the treadmill for 2 1/2 hours on Saturdays and Sundays...... I have run out of steam! The most I lost is 20.4 lbs, currently at 19 lbs lost..... I really dread weigh ins...... I did talk to the leader and she suggested that I use 1/2 of my exercise points that maybe my body is going in to starvation mode.... I don't know about that but I have eaten a couple of my exercise points. I selected my goal weight..... the max for my height.....I didn't realize that once you achieve Lifetime membership that you can go under your goal weight just not 2 lbs over it. So I'm about 2 lb's away from goal.... that is what I need to focus on! I am loving ATS belly dancing (American Tribal Style) an Instructor must have been trained/certified by Fat Chance Belly Dance ( Carolina N. the creator of ATS) to call yourself an ATS instructor. The ATS classes are taught at a Rec Center and there is currently 3 weeks in between sessions, my goal is to advance to the next level of class by November..... so I'm going to pay for private lessons..... I need the help... I'm nervous about the one on one factor....all eyes on me and what I'm doing in correctly...... I just have to keep my eyes on the goal.... I went to support Tribal Evolution my instructors troupe at Yaa Halla Y'all......it was exciting to see them perform......last year at YAY was the first time and the fire was starting in me! d

Just Now

Just now getting my exercise in for the day.....I slept until 11:00 not as bad as it sounds I wasn't in bed until 2:00. I was exhausted so I intended to sleep as long as my body needed.... I probably could have slept longer but my poor pug Miss Lucy Lu is crated at night....so I got up for her sake.... she is so undemanding! Anyway I did not want to exercise today .... in fact this feeling of dread began last weekend.I'm trying to work myself through it and just do it but I have to be able to give myself a day off with out quilt!
About 5 years ago a acquired a wonderful LuLu Parr wall hanging and a Lady of Guadalupe alter created by the wonderful artist KC Willis .... in the past at least once a year I would splurge a buy some type of creation by an artist.....for the last 4 years since my break up with Brett I haven't purchased anything....through Blogspot, twitter or facebook I ran across KC Willis again .... lo and behold she had a birthday (she turned 53) about a week ago and she sold her creations at 53% off the normal sale price..... I went crazy and bought 3 pieces and one is really large called Fallen Angels and 2 Annie Oakley pieces....I also bought her workshop on DVD so I too could attempt to create some terrific wall hanging.... of course I had to buy a ink jet printer for the photo transfers... a sewing machine with decorative stitches (I actually have bought 2 sewing machines is the last week.... one may go back...I haven't made my mind up ....I'm waiting for the 2nd one to arrive) This is my flaw....I go way over board when it comes to my passions, Art, Belly Dancing...Books....I do try to keep it in check but sometimes I just go haywire!
Well I have to go back and get another 30 minutes in (Leslie Sasone DVD) Ciao.... di

Besides re-emerging myself back into Belly Dancing, 10 weeks of working on losing weight and exercising everyday and now I'm feeling the need to express myself creatively.....not sure what form it will take but in the last 2 days I have made 2 trips to Fed Ex (making tons of copies for potentioal art projects) 2 trips to Michael's and a trip to Jo Ann's today....I'm also going to have to go through my boxes where I'm storing my art supplies.... I know I'm buying things that I already have....My inspiration is coming from artist KC Willis, Claudine Hellmuth, Sandra Evertson and Susan Shie...plus Somerset Magazines....they are fabulous!

Oh by the way this afternoon I was watching Mystery Diagnosis on TLC .......they were giving teasers about the story in the 2nd half of the program ...... I knew exactly what was wrong with him.... I had lived it myself less then 2 years ago... a living Hell.....it was Hemochromatosis.....too much Iron in your blood.... if it isn't found out in time you can actually die as the iron is deposited in your organs .....I feel exhaused much of the time....it is hard to continue with life as you knew it... Oh well ....at least when they put a name to what you have you can feel relieved that you are going crazy. Di

Guess what?

I actually have a 1st date Friday night..... that is the up side, the down side is sticking to my diet....he has asked to take me to dinner....plus there will be wine....Oh well I haven't allowed myself to pursue dating for the last 6 months... mainly due to my need to focus on work but I think I need to take the plunge...scared or not.
Diane

Not so Bad

Not so bad
I thought this weigh in would be hopeless..... but I just got back and I loss almost 1 lb.... not my best week but heck I didn't gain. Last week I screwed up taking my birth control on time so that may have thrown my body into havoc.....I will just party on and take each day as it comes, I have the tendency to be pretty crazy about dieting ..... as with my new approach to belly dancing I need to just be proud of myself for all I have accomplished and not get so upset when things don't happen on my time frame. I do want to challenge myself to continue to do more than just walking on the treadmill....Over the last 2 weeks I've gone to Latin Rhythm dance class, Aqua Aerobics, Belly Dancing, Lesile Sasone Walking Aerobics w/ weighted balls and Weight Watchers Aerobic DVD. I need to break out one of my 50 Belly Dancing DVD's and give myself a crash course on the basic moves of Belly dancing....it is amazing how much your brain can dump when you are not using the skill.....hopefully it is like other muscle a little fine tune up and it will bounce back into my brain (Massive Stress doesn't help with memory either)!I recently ordered 2 bathing suits from Lands End (for Aqua Aerobics class) the first one arrived and there was virtually no bar in it.....no way was I going to go to LA fitness in a light tangerine colored suit with no bra..... the cool thing was that you can return the items at Sears, no need to ship it back to Lands End..... so when they offer free shipping it off sets the Taxes and if it doesn't work out just head for the nearest Sears.....so Cool... now that is being customer friendly! Di