Call me a slug

I can't get going today......I had to go to the barn this am because 2 guys there had offered to help me move my months worth of hay that was delivered yesterday and the guys that delivered it stacked the 20 bales so high about 2 times my height, it looked like Mount Everest...it was so ridiculous! Thankfully they felt sorry for me ..... the thing was I needed to be there 1st thing in the morning....well I only got about 2-3 hours of sleep.....moving and rearranging my portion of the feed room required about 2 hours....I can feel it in my lower back. a 2 hour nap hasn't helped much ....hopefully I will get a second wind later this evening....I'm a night owl. I still haven't decided if I'm going to put up my small christmas tree....whew time is running out. Diane

Is it Friday?

Well the count down is on......I get off at noon tomorrow and I will be on vacation for over 2 weeks...(this year this is really important.....less time to screw up at work while they are making make or break decision on who gets to remain....please oh please pick me : )

I thinking about actually putting up my Christmas tree ( I love and collect ornaments and love the little white lights all lite up with all the lights in the house turned off)...I will keep you informed.

Off to work...Diane

I Made it through another week

Well,

Another week down.....2 weeks since the news of 40% lay off of my dept.
UPDATE
*Depression has hit
*I haven't gone to a single belly dancing class or Nia class in 2 weeks
*On the weekends sleeping about 12 hours (surprised my dog Teddy is agreeable to that much sleep)
*Going to bed early during the week
*I guess I'm getting down to the basics so My focus is on doing the best job I can ...... I certainly don't want a major screw up at work .....when they are deciding who gets to remain
*Ordered books on choosing the right career (just in case)
*Holding off on writing a resume and ordering how to write a good resume and how to interview (don't want to put bad mojo out in the universe)
*Don't think I'm putting up a Christmas tree up this year (I love christmas trees and collect ornaments)
*A guy from Match that we had been exchanging emails and a few calls.....was suppose to call and let me know when a good time to meet over coffee has disappeared.....the old something better came along on Match.....no response is a response.
*There is a little bit of hope another man on Match is emailing....he is a little older than I would normally go for but he seems like a grounded person and didn't run when I let him know about the possible lay offs....I think his company is going through the same thing
*Visit to the Oncologist yesterday let me know that my Iron level in my blood is remains high but not at the point that we would need to take action...go back in a year....if I have medical insurance
*Love watching sappy Christmas movies ..... must have a happy ending
*If I'm blessed with keeping my job I have gotten a wake up call...I will be spending less and saving more and down sizing my belongings in case I have to move

update

Well, I haven't felt much like journaling, Monday an announcement was made at work that my 40% of the dept.I work for was going to 40% of the work force laid off (I don't know how they are going to restructure...... our entire group could be hit or a move to another state could be required, I won't know who is impacted until mid January....at the end of the teleconference that last thing said was "Have a Merry Christmas, go shopping"... I couldn't believe how insensitive that statement was......it would have been more appropriate to say Christmas is cancelled! So I have been very depressed, scared to say the least.....fears of being homeless are all I can think about....it's not like job opportunities are bountiful! Prayers are appreciated!

Diane

My vacation is over : (

Well just a few more hours till I hit the bed and my vacation is over...I didn't accomplish all that I wanted to but I did more than I thought I would....main thing my apartment is beginning to shape up.....I see the light at the end of the tunnel....I have way too many clothes and books....maybe over Christmas vacation I can focus on those 2 areas....I have to be happy with microsteps and not get overwhelmed and do nothing! Eventually if I ever get married I will need an organizer and a maid to come in periodically......I'm just no good at either organizing or cleaning. I need to spend more time at home.......18 months of going to classes almost on a daily basis really took my apt to hell in a handbag!
I uploaded a picture to Match.com) that my Step Mother took on Thanksgiving..... I hoping that it may help and peak someone interest......One man did respond to my wink and we have exchanged several emails....he was at the airport about to depart and said he will write more when he reaches the UK ....keep your fingers crossed....it would be so nice to be dating someone during the holiday trifecta (<- I know I didn't spell it right) Christmas, New Years and Valentines Day.....Last year the Man I was dating broke up with me on Christmas.....he and his Ex wife decided things weren't over with them... I was just collaratel damage!

Diane

Hi all and a belated Happy Thanksgiving....this chickaroo did not wake up at dawn and hit the stores....I was all snuggled up in bed.....I actually slept over 11 hours......over the last week that I have been on vacation that is the way it has been ....I stay up until about 1:30 am and then sleep to about 12:00ish....I'm just going with it, evidently my body needs it (or I'm more depressed than I realized)...soon enough it will be back to getting an average of 6 hours of sleep so I'm going to enjoy it while I can. My Thanksgiving was enjoyable...I made homemade yummy Mac and cheese, corn casserole, buttermilk pie and iced brownies. My Mom's side of the family gathered at my sisters home....I stuck to my Intuitive diet concept and ate what I wanted and stopped when I felt full ....I can't believe how quickly I really start to feel full and in the past when the food was yummy I would just keep eating....I'm retraining myself to listen to my body and assure myself that I can eat later when I feel hungry again....(the one element that I haven't done very well at is getting more exercise for the pleasure of it ......I've been in the dumps lately and I'm doing good to go to the 3 days of belly dancing a week....I guess I need to kick myself in the rear and just do it. I ended the evening by dropping by my Dad's house, to see him and my step Mom (she had recent back surgery) we took them both big plates of food for them to enjoy. I think they were happy that my sister, my oldest daughter and I came by...I normally don't see them on Thanksgiving so it was nice to do a drive by for a quick group hug.
I do think I will venture out to JoAnn's there was a quilting book that I fell in love with on Tuesday and I have a 40% off coupon that I can use starting today...I will save 8 dollars... I'm getting the quilting bug again....it has been years since I was passionate about it......I do know that I need to add something creative back into my life as an outlet....I think I will be a happier person.....over the last 14 months my focus has really only been on work and belly dancing ...I have decided I need more balance in my life....adding quilting back into my life and joining the local Quilt guild would be a start....I also need to push myself to get back to an Illustrated Discovery Journal..... you wouldn't believe the stack of magazines that I have that I could put to good use.... more later.. diane

Things I've done

I snagged this little meme from Life as a Navy Wife's journal. Join in... Super simple... You just highlight the things you've done in your life. Mine are in Red.
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/world
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea (from the beach)
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch (Quilting)
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not illl (a wellness day)
24. Built a snow fort (a snowman)
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon (No but completed the Hotter than Hell bike race)
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies (Camp Fire Girls Candy back when it was Camp Fire Girls)
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter (Flown in a Blimp)
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy (searched for my Favorite doll Kitten by Madame Alexander on eBay and finally found her Hooty Hoo)
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper (Drill Team officer in High School and when I was an Apache Belle in College)
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House (just out front)
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous (John Denver when I performed at the Super Bowl as an Apache Belle)
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee