May have to count sheep

Couldn't sleep Monday night....maybe 2 1/2 hours and last night maybe 4 1/2 hours...it is no wonder that on the weekends when I'm sleeping good I can sleep up to 13 hours...they say you can't make up sleep but i don't agree! Tonight is Turbo Belly Dancing....on Saturday's weigh in I had lost about 6 lbs in 4 weeks....I've lost ground over the last few days....depressing getting on the scales when it is going in the wrong direction....I'm trying not to get bummed....hopefully it is water weight!

Tags: belly dancing, dieting

Another one bites the dust

Well I did end up having a date on July 4th, this time I really enjoyed myself but know by the end of the evening that I would never hear from him again.....and I was right. My 1st hint was when he asked "Do you have to go to the stables everyday" followed by "Well how long does it take you" then the finale statement when he had some idea how much $ it takes a month to own a horse he said something like he couldn't support that or he couldn't buy into that......the way I took his statement was that if we ended up together it wouldn't be acceptable for that much on my income to go towards a horse.....if he felt that way he sure wouldn't like the $ I spend for Belly Dancing classes.... costumes... wigs... BellyDancing instructional DVD's etc..... and the fact that I still help my daughter out with $.......I guess it is better to know it isn't going any where early on but I really think he was putting the cart before the HORSE in this case LOL! Like I thought I'm the Queen of 1st dates.......no Love Bug in my Future......I guess I have a Huge L on my forehead for being the Biggest Loser on the dating scene! Diane

Tags: dating

There is hope for a date tonight

Happy 4th to everyone, I have  no special plans for today, the only  plans other than Belly dancing classes is going out to lunch on Sunday with my Mom, Aunt and Sister. Well much to  my surprise a guy that I had winked at on Match actually called last night, we talked for over an hour....well he is playing golf this afternoon but we may get together for a drink tonight....that would be really cool....it would be nice to get my mind occupied with something positive.....I have been focusing my thoughts on 3 years ago....that was when Brett unceremoniously ended our 3 1/2 year relationship in the cruelest of all the break up's that I have live through. I keep telling myself that I should be over the anger/hurt but for some reason it is there.Maybe expressing it here will help me move through those negative feelings.......you know it isn't the fact that he didn't want to be with me anymore it is how COLD he was....almost unhuman like that cut me to the quick.....he must have really hated me is all I can think. to be so, so ugly. I have to weigh in tomorrow at my Turbo bellydancing class....bummer I don't think I have lost anything....my plan was to only eat poptarts and drink slimfast today in hopes that the water I'm retaining would depart before 10:00 tomorrow....if I go out for drinks that kind of blows that plan....but I have to be flexible and not get rigid like I was back in my aneroxic days when I would only eat certain foods and not have any social life that would take me into eating situations...i.e. eating out.   Diane

The joy of Wigs

Hi all....well I have to tell you that I'm sitting here in another wonderful wig.....a stylish Platinum white, long page boy cut wig...I really haven't worn it out in public but I'm going to venture out to do some shopping....it is definitely a eye grabber and you have to be in the just the right mood or should I say attitude to wear it....I will have to let you know how it goes! This is my 2nd day of vacation and I had all these plans for things I wanted to get to during this time off....it seems I only have enough energy to go to Belly dancing classes and the stables daily and then I'm tapped....sickly tired....I'm hoping whatever was wrong with me last year isn't reappearing it's ugly head....never could determine the root cause....I'm not sure if Hemochromotosis can cause extereme exhaustion.....I should be happy I have the energy to take 5 Belly dancing classes a week...it was so much worse not that long ago when I could barely walk up the flight of stairs to get to my apt. I guess I have to be happy with where I'm at and accept living in a messy abode. Maybe it a good thing I don't have a man in my life ......my apt would be embarrassing....my daughters are good about understanding, Thank God for my wonderful daughters! d

Tags: belly dancing

Vacation has begun

Well Freida I'm changing my font for you.....I hate that you had trouble reading my entries, but happy that you went to so much trouble messing with the font so you could read......I really appreciate you reading my journal and leaving me comments....how is your garden looking.....can you send me your link again to your journal ....maybe you can post some photos of your summer garden?  Well no dates in the past week and hardly any interest from the fellows on the dating site.....I keep praying that God will bless me with a wonderful Man to at least date and share some time with soon......I guess finding a Man that will appreciate  me and all my quirkiness....Belly Dancing...Wigs of many colors....oh well life with me wouldn't be dull. I'm going to attempt to add a picture of  me in my Platinum Blonde wig!

Is anyone one out there.....Hello

I think I'm the only one that reads my journal....is there anyone else out there .....Hello....I would love some comments.................

I went to a Bellydancing Hafla  last night,,,I wore  my Platinum Blonde asymmetrical cut wig and everyone seemed to love it......the dancers were wonderful .....maybe someday soon I will have the guts to get up there and dance in front of a crowd.....it will be my goal within the next year to do it....I didn't realize that I was so tired....I slept for 13...count them 13 hours.....when I woke up I found out that Gracie's stall had flooded last night.....I've been at the barn for about 4 hours, thank Goodness 2 friends took pity on me and pitched in to strip her stall, get the standing water out ......in about 100 degree plus high humidity.....boy I have calories in the bank.....What's for dinnner....yummy.   I have enrolled in a Turbo Belly Dancing class called "Fit or Bust" we are supposed to be writing down everything that touches our month..count calories.....I was an Anorexic and tend to go overboard when I focus on calories....I tired it for a week and have decided to do what is best for me and just track whether I only eat when I'm hungry and stop as soon as I feel full......I don't want to classify foods as good foods and bad foods ....I want a way to manage my weight for a life time. We were supposed to turn in our sheets for the last 3 weeks and I just handed in my daily exercise tracking sheet. My instructor didn't get on my case which I was happy about....I have lost between 3-4 lbs in three weeks. I have started to weigh myself which I can get over zealous...but so far so good.

Tags: Wigs, dieting

Bevy of Bellydancers

It's been forever since I've dropped a line...more oof the same ....first dates that are either nice but no spark or just straight out NO WAY!  My Mom says I need to write a book on all my online dating sites 1st dates.....maybe....who knows....
My daughter Jennifer graduates from the 1st level of belly dancing tomorrow night....I'm so proud and then Robin will graduate the end of September.....In my family we are going to be a Bevy of Bellydancers!

Tags: Belly dancing